Emotions

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I didn't write during the week, but made up for it so far this weekend with 6,600 words.

I have unlocked the box where so many of my memories have been forgotten for so long. And things are coming back with startling clarity.

Of course, these are my memories and it is completely possible they are not the literal facts. But they are my experiences, and that is the point of this experiment.

My closest friend learned something about himself this week and wondered what his life would have been like if he had known all along.

Pondering this myself. Had I made different choices, had I not set myself and my dreams aside, what would my life have been? But honestly, I would not be who I am and I am beginning to really like that person.

He asked at one point in the last months if my depression was because I had stopped engaging with my creative self. I used to write, and dance, and sing. I used to sew and stitch. I used to devour books.

These things take me away from doing all the things for my family, so I stopped engaging in them. But now, as I begin to crack open this box and engage in these things once again, my family is surviving.

And I feel more alive and true to Myself than I have in decades.

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